Leap

As pleased as I am about leaping into things like this blog, I'm often surprised at the things that I'm still just afraid of. 

While we were on vacation I routinely made my husband talk to strangers to ask for directions or other information we needed. I have no idea why I was afraid of this, but I was and I knew he wasn't and so he asked all the questions. 

As good as I am about holding myself to sometimes too high expectations, I'm not actually that great about doing this with others. It's probably some strange backwards fear about not being liked. Unless others hold themselves to their own high expectations, I often fall into the trap of taking things on for them to get what they are doing to a higher level instead of giving the feedback and allowing them to work through. 

These aren't helping me to be the force for good that I want to be in the world. I know that to fill my own life and the world with more joy and love, that I am going to need to get past this and other irrational fears that I have.

One of the ways I've been toying with doing this is enrolling in Seth Godin's altMBA. It's all about helping ruckusmakers and changemakers learn the leadership skills they need to make the change they want to see in the world. It's a kind of scary leap that I think I'm going to make. Just filling out and submitting the application will be a step in a more courageous direction. As I work through this over the next couple of weeks, it's likely that aspects of the application will pop up here as questions I try to work through on the blog.  Feel free to send your thoughts on how those are landing. 

This blog has significantly helped build my muscle for leaping. I need to add some other things to my routine now in order to ensure it keeps building.