Eight years ago today I wrote an update on social media about how I couldn't wait for some people to come over because I was not a solitary person. Fast forward to present day and while I still enjoy spending time with those I love, I would add solitary person to part of my identity.
It isn't who I am all of the time, but I was conscious this weekend while my husband was away in programming alone time as well as time with my friends. Even if I was in public, I was quiet. I had a 12+ hour period where I barely spoke to anyone besides my cat.
When I was in my 20's I had trouble with regulation. I did everything at the same pace all the time. The pace was fast and taking time to just be with myself was not something I was good at. I hated slowing down. After burning out on a couple of things, I realized that I needed to figure out how to find a better balance and that included learning to enjoy being solitary.