I have a sort of weird compulsion where I have trouble receiving help from others. I always want to be the one helping not being helped. I feel like I need to do more for others than they have for me. My biggest mountain to summit is letting go of this.
I know that in not leaning into help from others I do a disservice to our relationship. I have seen in the occasions when I have just accepted help openly that amazing things happen. It also is flipping my perception on needing help being a strength and not a weakness. The old saying "if you want to go fast, go alone. If you want to go far, go together" holds much wisdom. I'm running a marathon and not a sprint. It's also at times a relay or a three, five or seven-legged race. I'll never get to the end on my own and I'm slowly learning that that's the way it is supposed to be. That's where the magic happens.