Contrary

When I was growing up if someone called me contrary it meant I was in a bad mood or being spiteful. Really the word means to go against what is expected.

You can see though how it has gotten that meaning from my childhood. The world doesn't like us to go against things. It's uncomfortable for everyone involved. Better to go along, to get along and maintain the status quo. 

For better or worse, that isn't the path I was meant to walk. When I hide from my contrary opinion I end up with this weight in my stomach that stays there until I finally let out my thoughts. 

I know that it means it can be hard sometimes to be my friend, family member, colleague or husband. It seems as if the feedback never ends. That's my path to figure out though. How to balance the contrary opinion with enough love so the seed is able to take hold and flourish.